this is bad, cause i'm addicted to this song.

urgh.

and it's totally not helping when you're suppose to do projects.

but in anyway, i think the dance is cool.

i want to learn. HAHAHAHAHA! :D

sorry sorry sorry sorry~

just realistic, not pessimistic.

i'm finally updating this space.

after. a few days. okay. hahahahaha.

i'm neglecting this blog pretty much recently. ]:

i think cause i twitter too much.

and i tumblr too. so i'm getting lazy.

projects are coming to and end, then presentations, and exams, and holidays.

then it'll be SIP.

there's already one RBB presentation tomorrow.

ah meow.

i can't remember what i wanted to blog. i know i wanted to blog something. hahahaha, ohwells.

i feel like eating something, but i don't know what.

anyway, my dad's work is like 5 day work week now.

so he's saturday is free. so is like omg. he'll be at home every saturday. AHHHHHH! ]:

there goes my peaceful saturday. ]:

yesterday he was nagging at me like mad. i was like urgh, i want to rest on a saturdayyyyyy!

lol.

anyway, 27th july! HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRO.

please grow up. hahahaa, dont irritate me so much. LOL.

and happy belated birthday Sherry and Jasmine! 26th july!

happy belated birthday shawnlow! 25th july!

can't really remember much about what happened the past few days.

omg, my memory is really failing. haha.

i remember going to watch temasek league series, soccer is lol cause some people wanted to fight. hahaha. then there was captains ball and basketball.

watched more of captains ball, remember playing it when i was in primary school. mygoodness. how long was that.

celebrated shawn's birthday in lounge. and geraldine has a damn cool job now! (Y)

so a whole group of people went to kfc for dinner. then it was home.

wanted to go out yesterday, saturday. didn't in the end. long story which is z. no point in mentioning.

and today was just. z.

watched We Got Married! (Y)

only Kimhyunjoong and Hwangbo cuts though. :D

i lovelove the ssangchu couple. highly cute! super funny the both of them, very nice together!

i love how hyunjoong always do random funny things and those sweet little things to make hawngbo laugh! it's really sweet please. though he's insensitive. hahahaha!

and hwangbo is just damn nice i swear! and the food, wahhhhhhh.

how i wish it didn't end so fast! ]: and oh! their 100th day photos are (Y)(Y)(Y)!

but the last 2 eps was, omg. damn sad. whywhywhyyyy. D:

go Joongbo! if it's real life it's more cooool please.

i hope your love is always happy.

was talking to sab about some stuff.

and then i was like. actually, what's life?

but. quite interesting what, really, what's life? hahaha.

after that we talked about alot of retarded stuff though. HAHAHAHA! :D

SSMSSMSSMSSMSSM.

anyway, my back is aching again.

i tried cracking my back in different ways but not helping.

i need a massage. a really really good one. hahahhaa.

ohyah, i'm glad there's only 3 exams i'm taking! (Y)

kays.

tomorrow presentation.

FIGHTING!

i was just screaming on this ride, i need to learn how to throw my hands up high.

currently doing rbb.

submission this friday. no joke.

presentation is next monday. not funny.

i'm dying of fatigue already.

went to ryan and glenn's gig last saturday!

met cj, claud and sab first before going.

was late when we reached so we missed it! D:

haha, but heard it was great! (Y)

after that was lunch, then walking around and all with claud, sab, cj, glenn, xinhui, latif, jiayi and branda. sab had to l4d and then xinhui, latif and branda went movie, and claud went church.

and ryan joined us back for some slacks.

tried to do something but nothing.

in the end we just left the place to city hall to meet sab and pam.

dinner-ed, glenn and ryan left, met claud, to pasir ris we go.

reliez chalet.

whole lot of people! O:

some were outside some were inside.

card games screaming shouting all. they had a little bit of raping here and there. met a few rare faces! and a few chappers. hahaha! it was quite fun laughing at sab being molested by me and jamphua. then me and cheryl went nuts. abit of dai di, with nic swearing he wont lose if not he suck cock. in the end he lost but there was no action, HAHAHA. abit of truth or dare and charles is damn zomg sicko shit. fathin is retarded max and eric is damn poorthing. hahaha. pris came with robin! and yay, gelatogelato. fierce shit everyone was snatching. but it was awesome! love the rocky road, thanks prissy! thanks alvin and jessy for the organizing of chalet too! [:

was reading sab's blog!

it's (Y)! :D read a post about some convo some time ago.

still makes me smile! hahaha!

i'm neglecting my blogger i realise.

been twittering a little too much plus there's other blogs to distract me. omg. hahaha.

i'm loving tumblr. :D it's nice.

went to watch temasek league series today.

was joking about watching a show to paige. what premium seat all.

and then some people were really bo liao to want to fight.

come on lah, grow up. fights are childish leh.

was talking to sab, and she say if you think life sucks, eat cup noodles.

but i just finished mine! D:

need to stock more at home.

kay i'm actually getting really tired.

i really need to get myself motivated.

i actually thought of what i really wanted to do for a moment today.

but i don't know if it's feasible. what if it's just a moment kind of thing.

hahaha, you know i'm a realist.

thanks nicniccocolette. hahaha.

bangsbangsbangs you. thanks for asking and the little chat. lol, though i feel like a little dog but it was nice. hhahahaha! meow.

thanks claud, sab and cj!

i'm feeling pretty tired right now.

rp3 tomorrow, pereocean. outisde library. i sense a long shag day.

i heard there's an eclipse tomorrow.

sounds interesting, no?

i'm actually craving for a mcspicy. zomg.

or something fried, chicken, spiced up kind. kfc sounds good too, or even popeyes.

but no kay, i really am craving for mcspicy. godddamnit.

k bye cup noodles.

THANK YOU SEXYBITCH SABRINATANSEXYLEGS! :D

so sweet lah! open my email first thing i see is thisssssss! [:

anyway! today first avenue was awesomeawesomeawesome!

sold stuff okay! not to friends somemore! :D

like happy only! and that makes our department hit the target just like, 30minutes after store opened. highly cools! (Y)

nua-ed most of today. and yay! sleepsleep. suddenly i super love sleeping.

was thinking of sleeping earlier tonight too.

went Chomps yesterday!

sexciting. but our one-man organizer was sick! take care lah izakteh.

met sab, ahsiao and claudz! :D talked quite alot about ahsiao's hair. hahaha!

and he showed me all my camwhored pictures in his phone. HAHAHAHA!

waited for dorothy and gina to come! whoootz!

cindy and farhan came afterwards then all buy food.

damn shiok. stingray, lala, oyster omelette, chicken wings, char kway teow, sugarcane! shiok only! was a massive load of fooooooooood \m/

was damn damn damn shiok, we looked like seventh month ghosts. hahaha!

then cindy and farhan left, and the rest of us continue eating like swines! HAHAHA!

and ahsiao was still saying he will pass the flu to us alll! haha!

then we were like talking about our shirt colour!

2 yellows, me and claud, 2 reds, dor and sab, 2 whites, ahsiao and gina!

gina and ahsiao had a damn exciting talk about the collection of the little miss and mr all.

then gina was saying she wants mr bum mr strong and stuff. hahaha, and ahsiao took out a ball!

then there's mr small and little miss sunshine! :D

and ahsiao gave me the little miss sunshine! woots! k, actually i sort of kope from him lah. hahaha! but. little miss sunshine, i hope she gives me more sunshine. [:

tauhuayed. or more like puddinged. hahaha!

talked quite alot of shit!

and funniest thing is we stood under the kensington park rd sign and talked for quite long! HAHAHAH!

after that waited for bus and homesweeeeethome.

weekends is here. not much difference i guess.

shall go for reliez chalet a while and see how its likeeeeee.

sounds cool.

think i'm going to see glenn and lopez's gig at heeren tomorrow!

sounds cool.

what sounds the coolest is that I'M GOING TO SLEEEEEEP!

(Y)

tired beyond words.

1. You are walking in the woods. You are not alone. Who’s with you?
future boyfriend. haha.

2. You are walking in the woods. You see an animal. what kind of animal?
rabbit!

3. What interaction takes place between you and the animal?
walked to the rabbit and cuddle it.

4. You walk deeper in the woods. You enter a clearing, and you are at your dream house.
a bungalow. simple and nice.

5. Is your dream house surrounded by a fence?
er no.

6. You enter the house. You walk into the dining room and see the dining table is covered with?
nothing.

7. You exit the house and a cup is on the ground, what kind is it?
a porcelain cup with a handle.

8. What do you do with that cup?
nothing, leave it there.

9. You walk to the edge of the property where you find yourself standing at what body of water?
a small pond.

10. How do you cross that body of water?
walk around it.

!! Don’t read the rest yet if you’re planning to fill this out !!!-

The ANSWERS
1. The person who you are walking in the woods with is the most important to you.

2. The size of the animal is representative of your perception of the size of your problems in your life.

3. The severity of the interaction you have with the animal is representative of how you deal with your problems.

4. The size of your dream home is representative of the size of your ambition.

5. A lack of a fence is indicative of an open personality. People are welcome at all times. The presence of a fence indicates a closed personality. You’d prefer people not drop by unannounced.

6. If your answer did NOT include food, flowers, or people, then you are generally unhappy.

7. The durability of the material with the cup is representative of the perceived durability of your relationship.

8. What you did with the cup is representative of your attitude.

9. The size of the body of water is representative of the size of your relationships.

10. The way you cross the water is representative to how easy or hard you expect your life to be.

found this on tumblr and thought it was pretty interesting. :D

ohwells. some of the parts is like. is like. i don't know. hahaha!

i love this morning's weather. shiokballs! how i wish can just nua in bed whole day.

anyway, i'm having headache. hahaha dieeee. and i'm still veryyyy sleeeeeppppyyy.

must be the weather! must be.

hokays. time to hit schooool.

meowmeowwoofrawrmoo.

can't agree more.

so today is tuesday.

i feel like calling it Red Tuesday.

cause i was wearing red, with red toenails, and i didn't realise my undergarments were red until i went home, and i was wearing red strawberry earstuds.

RED TUESDAY. oh, i ate bolognese in the afternoon also. very red.

anyhow, went school for about like 5-10minutes consultation for FARM.

glad it's pretty fine.

submission this friday. woahwoah.

felt really really really really extremely tired today.

i've got no idea why, just felt very drowsy.

when lounge at bout 11 and was at the toilet. i felt like vomitting but, nahhhh there was nothing.

and no it wasn't exactly gastric, or anorexic, neither am i pregnant k fuck. guess it's PMS though.

was stoning and zonking most of the time.

cj say that what i feel is called nauseous or okay i don't really know the spelling.

zomg. was lucky to have branda and chester as company this afternoon! haha.

then some stuff happened, yes, some stuff.

you know i don't usually say these kind of things here because to me my blogger should be happy. but i guess i don't really care anymore so ohwells. i guess my mood wasn't really good at first and everything. and since i guess it was directed very at me and all. felt very bitchy today, and i guess bitch fit isn't the best thing. sorry to whoever is affected, and the victims under my bitch attack. i am a bitch, no doubt,i admit. i typed a whole chunk after this, but i guess it's of no use saying or explaining or talking about it anymore.

thanks claud, sab, cheapo, branda, lopez and a few others. rocks only.

FROLICK AFTERWARDS! with sab and cj!

shiokballs onlyyyyyyyyy. oreo is still the best topping ever! (Y)

i guess photobooth is still fun at frolick, hah!

am freaking tired.

can i ask reject project's call? it's calling me.

anyway, sabbbbbb!

blog posted.

how sia, if everytime you ask me to blog i blog.

tsktsktsk.

meiyoulaaaaaaaaaa. :D

i thought this is damn funnnnnnnnnnny! i laughed out loud when i first saw it. :D

following is something interesting found on vanessa's blog.

Installation of Love.

>

Tech Support: Hello … how can I help you?

Customer: Well, after much consideration, I’ve decided to install
Love. Can you guide me through the process?

Tech Support: Yes. I can help you. Are you ready to proceed?

Customer: Well, I’m not very technical, but I think I’m ready. What do I do first?
Tech Support: The first step is to open your Heart. Have you
located your Heart?

Customer: Yes, but there are several other programs running now.
Is it okay to install Love while they are running?
Tech Support: What programs are running ?

Customer: Let’s see, I have Past Hurt, Low Self-Esteem, Grudge
and Resentment running right now.

Tech Support: No problem, Love will gradually erase Past Hurt
from your current operating system. It may remain in your permanent
memory but it will no longer disrupt other programs. Love will
eventually override Low Self-Esteem with a module of its own called High
Self-Esteem. However, you have to completely turn off Grudge and
Resentment. Those programs prevent Love from being properly installed.
Can you turn those off ?
Customer: I don’t know how to turn them off. Can you tell me how?

Tech Support: With pleasure. Go to your start menu and invoke
Forgiveness. Do this as many times as necessary until Grudge and
Resentment have been completely erased.

Customer: Okay, done! Love has started installing itself. Is that
normal?
Tech Support: Yes, but remember that you have only the base
program. You need to begin connecting to other Hearts in order to get
the upgrades.

Customer: Oops! I have an error message already. It says, “Error
- Program not run on external components.” What should I do?

Tech Support: Don’t worry. It means that the Love program is set
up to run on Internal Hearts, but has not yet been run on your Heart. In
non-technical terms, it simply means you have to Love yourself before
you can Love others.
Customer: So, what should I do?

Tech Support: Pull down Self-Acceptance; then click on the
following files: Forgive-Self; Realize Your Worth; and Acknowledge your
Limitations.

Customer: Okay, done.
Tech Support: Now, copy them to the “My Heart” directory. The
system will overwrite any conflicting files and begin patching faulty
programming. Also, you need to delete Verbose Self-Criticism from all
directories and empty your Recycle Bin to make sure it is completely
gone and never comes back.
Customer: Got it. Hey! My heart is filling up with new files.
Smile is playing on my monitor and Peace and Contentment are copying
themselves all over My Heart. Is this normal?

Tech Support: Sometimes. For others it takes awhile, but
eventually everything gets it at the proper time. So Love is installed
and running. One more thing before we hang up. Love is Freeware. Be sure
to give it and its various modules to everyone you meet. They will in
turn share it with others and return some cool modules back to you.

Customer: Thank you, God.

it's very interesting. [:

right now i need to pull down self-acceptance, then to forgive self, realize my worth and acknowledge my limits.

cannot find it. so i shall pause installation currently.

anyhow, my internet's back.

hell yeah \m/

it's something worth being happy about.

last week was pretty hell cause internet's down, and there was like many things to do kind of feeling. july's a scary month cause it's when projects will be pilling and submission draw nearer and nearer.

but i'm glad there will be things to look forward to! :D

those small little outings/dinner, what nots are like my little motivation. [x

like next week next week!

one of the nights, i don't know which! there will be chomps dinner!

helluvawesomeyaw! :D

thankyou max to ISSACTEH that retarded one-man organizing comm! haahaha!

i was laughing like mad when he say i made him smile to his phone! awwww! loves lah!

and Claudine's been awesomely sweet! :D

thanks to her man, i think without her i wouldn't have survived the past week.

the macaroons were, not bad! but got room to improvement!

and i think maybe one day i shall go to her house for some baking session.

hahaha, really thanks for hearing me out although you always laugh at me, but it's okay, cause you're still the love. :D

i'm listening to Love Will Keep Us Alive by the Eagles.

it's a nice song. i like listening to those like, slow and easy listening songs.

makes you feel so relaxed and worry-free. like you're floating on those chewy clouds that you can sleep on and will not worry falling down all. hahahahhaa. does it makes sense?

anyway, i'm having backache now, AGAIN. OMG LAH.

it's happening more than before. ]:

it's bad. very bad.

found this on ljsecret.

somehow i find it quite true. i know some people doesn't like it. but it's a fact, leh.

ohwells.

i saw a phrase on tumblr, "Friendship is like money, easier made than kept."

thought it was quite true, too. hahaha.

anyway, i was just having backache!

and then i was somehow craving for some roasted fooooooood! :D

ohyes, i had a weird dream last night. shouldn't exactly call it a dream, seems more like a nightmare. but, hmm.

i dreamt that i died, AGAIN. seems like dreaming myself dying is not a new thing already. but it was a little more gory this time round. compared to the past where i just dreamt that i died silently kind.

it's abit more shocking cause there was blood and knife involved.

abit fascinating cause it looks like a part of movie scene.

but the like the main actress is me kind of thing, hahaha.

and funniest thing is my death took place in a theatre, i can't remember what kind.

i walked in, and ohmygoodness, i saw people sitting on their chair, DEAD.

all of them had a knife stuck in their throat. it's even crazier when i realised all of them are familiar faces. like majority are friends. walau, i felt so bloody sad and was wondering whatthehell happened here.

then i plop myself into one of the seats. i was looking to the front, i wanted to ask what happened but nobody can reply me. then suddenly i felt a knife, a very sharp knife, on my neck, slowly pushing into my throat. like i can feel the cut, then into all my nerves blood vessels muscles all. the funny thing is i don't feel any pain, and i somehow knew this was coming. and as the knife slowly being pushed into my throat, i looked around to see who the 'killer' was, it was someone i know, and she was telling me don't worry, it doesn't hurt, everything will be okay. look, everyone's dead, and she herself got a knife on her neck too! lololol.

don't blame her, i sat back on chair, i can still breathe. i can talk abit. i can feel the tip of the knife inside my throat. there's still air. i'm losing my breath very slowly. i can feel blood. it's gushing out of the wound. when am i going to die, or at least faint. though it's not painful but the blood is, like, accumulating in some parts of my body and i'm going to like puke blood anytime.

then it happened. the blood was in my mouth, and then i just vomitted all the blood.

okay, by then i can't breathe anymore. and suddenly everyone around just looked at me!

and i thought they were dead! totally don't know what was going on. i remember a movie was playing on the screen, everyone just continued watching, as i slowly pass out.

then i close my eyes! lol, i remember someone looked at me and say goodbye when i close my eyes.

walauuuuuuuuuu dramatic siaaaaaaaaal. and fucking gory. the bloooood was. scary max. and it feels very real somehow. i don't know why it feels as though i can feel the knife. ahhhhhh!

okay, whatever that scary dream is.

i had a couple other retarded dreams! and i woke up smiling at those retarded parts! hahaha!

ps: Sab, Ahsiao, Claud and Izak appeared in one of them together. and is quite retarded i swear.

and sab totally forbid me calling her sexylegs.

which i just did.

kays, goodnight world.

you are so cooling tonight that i don't have to on the aircon.

which sort of save the earth.

hellyeah, this weather rocks. i love sleeping in this cooling weather.

please, no more knives and blood in my dreams, i dont want anymore dramas.

TPSU AGM

so monday was TPSU's AGM!

was pretty interesting. haha. glad to have Sab for company woots!

eyecandy song was (Y), minus the spotlight part. hawhaw.

i totally missed out the new added in bridge because i was very distracted! zz.

anyhow, was awesome cheering our hearts out. haha!

(ps: i'm typing this on 110709. after my internet is back. so i'm having a memory lag. o:)

so one of the days. (okay if this is drafted on the actual day of incident..)

then woah! camwhore in lounge "today!" HAHHAHAA.

Cj's photobooth is happening to max.

actually cause he was foosballing and we shouldn't waste electricity so why not let's photoboooth!

plus his effects were awesome fantabulousss! (Y)

k, i guess i should do a new post on the past week, though it seems like nothing much has happened. but hey!

SAB AND AHSIAO! you've got something to read now! :D

SCREAMSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!

- ♥ GRACiiE! ; Never Again. says:

wah shit im feeling sleepy

-DEREK- P.F.L give me reason to prove me wrong, to wash this memory clean says:

haha!

good!

then you can sleep mah!

meet sabrina in lalaland!

you better log in faster

if not later i log in liao then you cnt log in alr

only two ppl can log in

using the same account

user is gracesabrinaderek

pw is dereksabrinagrace

dont confuse the two

difficult to rmb one

sabrina inside very long le

this one connection good

wont dc one

- ♥ GRACiiE! ; Never Again. says:

HAHAHHAHAHAHAHA

AHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA

WTH!

haha, Ahsiao is sooooooooo goddamn funny i swear! omg.

and sexybitch Sabrinatanchenling! please get well soon, if not can you spread something to us, then we can have flu party. LOL!

i'm feeling crazy, and i think i'm going crazy already.

i NEED to learn how to manage my time because i don't. and i really need to learn how to focus because i can't. i don't want to show that i can't handle so many things at one go and show that i'm alright, when i'm not. i know i'm acting to show that i'm okay and fine, but the truth is i am not. it gets very bad when i'm alone. yah shut up i know i sound very weak now and i hate it. i know i must act to show that it's not affecting me or whatever, but in actual fact it is affecting me very badly, i don't know why and, i hate it. i hate myself for feeling so weak. i'm feeling what? lost? insecure? uncertain? i don't know. it just feels as if i'm going crazy. aiiisssshhhh. after i type this whole thing, in the end, i'll still be alright. that's what i always tell myself, i'll be alright. i will be, right? okay. projects. now. now. go. i'm okay. you're okay. we're okay. everyone's okay. this chunk is useless. it's not worth reading, it's pointless. k. projects. go. chill. and. go.

i think i just can't handle stress well. stress and time management, anyone?