watch this when you're feeling sucky.
sure feel better man.





it's coming again, wheeeeee!

LOL!

I'll sing it
One last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing
That's right
In all I've done

And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere
Away from here

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you
Can't raise your voice to say

To think I might not see those eyes
Makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say
Our long goodbye
I nearly do

Slower slower
We don't have time for that
All I want is
To find an easier way
To get out
Of our little heads

Have heart my dear
We're bound to be afraid
Even if
It's just for a few days
Making up for all this mess

fuck.

seriously.
how did we know that you will want to shop and watch movie.
if you will to tell us, we might have went with you right.

i don't know lah.


if you think we didn't bother about you.
i tell you k.
i did worry okay.
i wonder was it right that non of us accompanied you.
but i figure that it should be okay.
since you've been doing it alone, and telling us to do it alone too.

i don't know about eddie.
but seriously.

i called you so many times already.
i just wanted to know where were you.
i asked if you ate already.
you could've just replied me, yes or no.
instead of pulling all the afternoon what money talk.
yes, i know money's a big issue in the family now.

but it's not as if i kept asking you fr money right?
it's not like i've never think about anything.
yes, i do ask for money, but i only ask when it's time for my allowance.
i don't ask like what 500 or 700 at one shot or what, what.
furthermore, the afternoon money incident was just a joke.
whether you increase my allowance or not, i'm fine with it.
i'm still living perfectly fine, what.

yes, i did compare about my allowance and all to eddie.
but it was just for fun, really.

yes, i'll be glad if you give me extra allowance, but.
i've never really written a what black and white, or demand like fuck for it right.
252 including transport, yes it might be little but whatever.

and then you finally came home.
daddy and i ask you anything all.
you were like okay i'm fine what all
ask where you went.
wah, watch movie and shopping all.
machiam enjoy life what.
then you were complaining what how lonely it was to watch movie alone, shop alone.

but really, have you ever thought how i felt when i was in Genting.
it was the SAME what.
but i never complained also.
i mean. yes, i did show you a black face. but i joked it off right.

i didn't of my phone and act like i'm missing and everything, what.
yesyesyes, foreign country right. cannot be missing right, cannot live without you right.
urghhhh.

i don't know lah.

i think you're having menopause.
rahhh. i hope it'll be better after you've calmed down and after i've blogged this out.


and to anyone who thinks i'm crazy, i think i'm having pms.
and if you think i'm unfilial, so be it.


it's tiring enough to be the 'thinking' one.
the older and more thoughtful one.
the one who has to think of her younger sibling, what to give, to share, to what don't know sacrifice all.
tried to be a good girl. but it's damn tiring ah.

i don't know.
maybe i'm not a good girl enough i guess.




it's so damn tiring.
everything.
urgh.

SERIOUSLY.
WHY CAN'T WE HUMANS BE ABLE TO READ MINDS.

NOW THAT EVERYTHING IS LIKE THIS.
is damn screwed.

i mean, i really didn't know she wants accompany.
she usually does everything alone.

okay, maybe I thought she's okay alone.
cause she ALWAYS tells me to do stuff ALONE.

so maybe i thought of like a 'revenge'?
whatever lah.

so now it's as if like PMS, Pre Menstrual VS PMS, Post Menstrual.
fuck.

or maybe it's Menopause.

it's damn fucked okay.


sorry that we didn't accompany you alright.
how do we know you really need accompany. so last minute all.
angry yah. but.
HANG THE PHONE, DON'T REPORT LOCATION ALL?
CHILD'S GAMES EH.
yes, needs understanding and everything.
buttttt. this is not the way lahhhhhhhh.

we already called you and everything.
not as if we did not care ah.
i mean.

WE'RE NOT THE KIND WHO SAY WHATTT SORRY, I MISS YOU, COME BACK HOME SOON KIND.
WE'RE TRAINED TO BE HARD-FEELINGS ALL.
WAHHH WHATEVER LAH.

I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT AM I SAYING ALREADY.



CAN YOU JUST PLEASE ON YOUR PHONE,
FUCKING ANSWER AND TELL US WHERE ARE YOU CAN.







WHAT AM I SUPPOSE TO DO NOWWWWWWWWWW.
SEARCH?! START FROM WHERE MAN.

THIS IS SO NOT GOOD PLEASE.
URGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!



FUCK LAH.

you know what,
CRAMP SUCKSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS.
]:


GENTING TOMORROW!
TILL WEDNESDAYYYYY! :D

so excitingggg. [:
i'll try to buy many stuff back for people okayyy! :D

haha.
yayyay!

i don't think i'll be able to sleep tonight. \:
insomnia sia!

gooood morning! :D

my house machiam like have party everyday.

Ben, Bernita and Shawn's at my house now.

again a last minute random decision to come my house. LOLOL!
so bert was trying very hard to do her work.
and we were all like doing own stuff all.

talked abit here and there and all fell asleep at around.
5am? o:

more like purposely want to fall asleep one lor. HAHAHHAA.

so now ben is the only one still sleeping. haha!

LOL, now my house like hotel already. o:



anyway! freak!
i just have my menses! D:

funny thing is, totally no sign about it!
my whole week was pretty alright, like happy happy all!
only until last night..

okay, so a happy period? haha!
i'm not even using whisper. LOL.
good marketing strategy.

but seriously!
no sign lehhhhhhhhh. dieee lah.
i'm going Genting tomorrow! this sucks.

MENSES YOU SUCKKKKKK.
SUCK BALLLLS! MANY MANY BALLLLLS!

HAHA, just 3 seconds of your life please. :D

anyway!
spent the WHOLE day sleeping. o:

so in the end Yufei left my hous at 5am and the rest left at 9am! o:

tomorrow's sunday.
and then it'll be mondayyyyyyyy!

GENTINNNGGGGGGGG. :D

Helllllo.

i have 4 retards over at my house now. o:
namely Annhin, Brandon, Farhan and Yufei.

Annhin and Farhan's sleeping.
Brandon's skyping and Yufei's playing game.
erm, yes.


met people in lounge and proceeded to cpf macs!
there was Shawnlow, Claudine, Emilla, Iman, Farhan, Latif, Ben and Desmond!
Coffee Bean afterwards and Wan join us.

met Annhin, Brandon and Yufei and coming my house!
it was a random last minute last decision though. o:

you know, i really believe in listening to things both side.
and to not assume ah.
yah, cause things might just be different.

i'm imagining the rainbow slowly twirling... into a BIG LOLLIPOP! :D
so nice! xD

holidayssss. i love holidays. :D

will be going Genting on next monday to wednesday!
exciting much. [:

it's so boring to stay at home, yet i feel so lazy to go out and all. haha!
but am going to lepak with some people later on. [:

Reliez chalet was awesomeeeeeeeee!
truth and dare was bombastic.
the truths are out of the world and it's damn horrific to imagine. omg.
but it was damn hilarious looking at people doing the dares. :D:D
boardwalk was cool with Claudine!
place is beautiful maxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx!

trip home took about 1hour plus. long shit.
sleep wake up sleep wake up sleep. HAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHA! :D

Let It Rock is being played on MTV now.
let it rock let it rockkk.

anyway! yay! can finally go D&D! :D
awesome shit. but now is.
DRESS AS WHATTTTTT. die.
money is such a big problem during holidays. ]:

oh and yes.
i'm feeling happy these few days. [:
i think it's the happy period of the month! hahaha!
but maybe in a few weeks pms will come again. damn shit.

I'm currently in Lounge. :D

here with Claudine and Shawnlow. hahaha.

Reliez chalet was cool.
Nearby are Zetten and Nexo chalet.
and Chelsie's birthday chalet. :D

so exciting.


Claudine told me i'm soft-hearted.
i didn't know that until today.
i've always thought i'm just emotional only. hahaha.
didn't know i have a soft heart. \: hmm.

anyway, i suck at HTHTs.
i want to listen more but i'm afraid of it being too heavy and i can't handle it.
alcohol made it worse.
ohwells. i hope things gets better anyway.

i'm lucky that one got better, and then a new thing has to happen.
hahaha, i don't quite understand my own english anyway. it's either you get it or you don't. \:

okay, Claudine's done with her stuff!
gotta head back to chalet! [:

Hello,

if you want to read a damn sweet love story!

here is one! :D

presenting!

Brandon&Melissa

so sweet, sugar also lose out already.

stay strong you two! :D

anyhow, i'm enjoying my life like mad now! [:
it's the wonderful HOLIDAYSSSSS!

okay, i seriously pray for no supps. omgomgomg, i am sooooooo scared please.
but heck it all! enjoy holidays first, yay!

ohyes, 270209!
went to Minds Cafe at Safra!
with Claudine, Mich, Shawn, Iman, Wan, Ben!
funny games. True Colours was the bommmmmbbbbbbbbb.

had OTC Refresh on 280209!
Reliez was retarded. Retardedly fun. [:
let's bond more during the upcoming chalet! :D

had Gloryous Primary School Gathering!
so eggciting.
thanks Gabriel for inviting us to your. penthouse? haha!
there was Yinyue, Gabriel, Tania, Huiting, Sherry, Pangmaye, Wangguan, Changsiang, Jasmine, Shiqing, Eugene, Yewjin, Daniel, Hsunhao. so fun.
I almst couldn't recognize Daniel and Changsiang. like o m g. LOL.
Sherry was damn unglam. HAHAHAHA! some of us stayed over till the next day! yay!
so funnnn.

010309
omg, nice weather to sleeeeeep!
had hthts which made my heart felt really heavy.
but am glad to have the htht. [:

020309!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHELSIE!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRANDA!

:D

am going to Chelsie's 18th Birthday chalet later.
and from tomorrow to Thursday it'll be Reliez Chalet!

HOW EXCITING LIFE IS LIKE THIS.

my comp's like giving me headaches. meoooooow.

oh yes, i saw the following on somewhere. pretty meaningful.

sometimes we drift, we may go our separate ways in pursuit of life and dreams. But the beauty of it all, is growing separately but never growing apart..

i feel like changing blogskin!
but my comp's like lagggg till i dont feel like doing it. ahbooooooomeow.

okay! i shall go get ready and all.
gotta meet ruth sooon! :D

seeeeyou dear lappytoppy.
maybe i shall name my laptop something.
like. like. like. KickAssShinySilverLover.

HAHAHAHAHHAHAHA WHATEVER THIS IS RETARDED
K BYE.