hello!

today is already saturday.
wow.
yesterday can be one of my suay-est day in my life please.
have never been so suay before lah.
LIKE. WAH. SO SUAY SINCE MORNING CAN.

don't know lah.


was blog hopping just now. reading random people's blog.
really damn random kind. some i know, some i don't know.
don't care, don't know. haiyah.
yah. but then i was thinking.
why some people can just say whatever they want.
like, really everything?
haiyah. this blog is suppose to be MY blog. i can don't care and just anything right?
but like, why am i caring so much and sometimes, don't even say what i want to say.
and i have to like what, keep private blog just to type whatever that i'm not comfortable to say here? dumb i know.
then sometimes i will anyhow think, don't know why also. don't know why last time i can be so... happy? wait. i don't know how to say also. i mean i am STILL happy. but maybe not as happy as before. and i think i've lost all my creativity and, maybe optimism.
and yah. i'm not as straightforward already. sometimes i still keep things to myself. not good, but good.
now i don't even know what i'm saying. crazy lah.
there are sometimes, so many things i want to say. but i just couldn't say it out.
it's not that i cannot find anyone to say. there is, but maybe is like i cannot trust? or maybe it's not cannot trust. but it's something in me, i don't know. like i'm scared that what i say will hurt other people or like... i don't know lah. i don't even know what i'm going to say now.
sometimes i think i strong. but other times i'm weak. but i think i'm very weak.
urgh. weakling.


how suck lah.
i failed ALL of my midsem test.
GO AND DIE GRACE.
GO BANG WALL AND DIE LAH SERIOUSLY.

urgh, shall work even harder. ]:
yah lah, i'm not putting in enough effort. RAWR.
i can just go and die please. ]:

ah whatever.
another rambling post. whatthefreakingmehmeh is with me, i don't know.
maybe that monthly duty is coming AGAIN.
shit it lah. ]:

okay.
forget it.
i shall go edit photos and upload them later.
IT'S ALOT OF PHOTOS LAH. OHMYFREAKINGFLYINGMEHMEHS.

byebye!
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