hello.
so i guess everyone already heard about the news. ]:
ishi's gone.

i was damn shocked when i heard it.
i cannot believe it la!
i thought it was some joke or whatever.
but no, it's real. ]:

i still remember last year, at around this time, i was watching tv, looking at soul dance.
and i think ishi's damn cute. :D
he look so sunshine boy!
celesta likes him too! haha.

we didn't go for much superband events cause we're studying for o levels.
and the deepest impression is when we went to expo when they have their rehearsals for the finals.
my favourite is not soul.
but i like them also. :D
my second favourite. haha.

i remember asking ishi to sign on my handbook.
and he signed nonsense! haha.
he got a damn nice smile. [:
he seems so cheerful, so happy.

but now, he's no longer alive.
rest in peace ishi.

this shows that life is unpredictable and we should treasure what we have now.
you may be healthy and kicking now, but you may not know what will happen to you later.
you may get knocked down by a car, or get stabbed by a robber.
you will never know.

it also shows that, one may look happy, but like you say, LOOK.
you won't know how he/she feels.
LOOK happy.
it's only on the surface.
he/she may be down today, but he/she can choose not to show it.
and you will never know.
ishi may look happy, but he's not.

it applies to alot of people.
why do people LOOK happy when they're not?
cause they don't want people to worry for them, and everyone just assumes that they are happy and that they will not be sad.
it sort of became their image. it's what they're suppose to be like.
they will never be sad cause they are happy.

someone once said that, 'people who look happy are usually those who are not.'
'they are happy just to cover up how they really feel.'

it's not split personality, it's just a mask they use.
it's not fake, it's they don't want to people to worry for them.

happy people always look like they have no worries.
thus not much people will be there to listen when they're down.
happy people, sad?
they won't believe.

they want to be happy, but they can't.
so they make people believe that they are happy.
so they look happy.
but, they are not.



boos.
enough of long thoughts.
i guess i'm still not in a good mood today.

byebye.