nobody said it was easy,

no one ever said it will so hard,

i'm going back to the start.

you know, how nice it will be if everything can just like.
go back to the start.

but nah, things will never go back and be the same ever again.
cause you know like things cannot be changed. sucks ah life.

had quite an emotional yet reflective yet sad at the same time talk, with Nicolette.
but it's really very sad leh, i feel.

was talking about being a child.
you know if i can ever travel back in time, i will go back being a child.
i envy them alot. like, they can be so carefree, they don't think so much, they don't have so much responsibility, they don't need to bother about so many things.
they don't have to worry about being poor, no food to eat or no clothes to wear.
they don't have to worry about friends, being betrayed, backstabbed or ignored, neglected.
they don't have to worry about what others think, how others view them as, or how others treat them. they just take whatever they have, whatever they want.
they don't have any problems, they only have their wishes, dreams, fairytales.
how nice if life is like that.

and as we grow up everything's gone.
now everything's like black and white.
sucks ah life.

actually, i'm just sick of myself running away from every problems i have. and not even try to face it at times. coward asshole.


how i wish i can just you know. put down everything, and go to some countryside and enjoy the laidback life there. like, live alone. sounds quite cool leh.
can learn how to be independent also.



ANYHOW.
whatever that emo thought.
scientist is still a nice song.

i realise picture is very important. so i included a picture.
(actually i've realised the importance damn long ago, just that after my comp broke down multiple times, plus the fact my *previous* phone can no longer transfer photos, i stopped uploading. hahaha)


okay, i was thinking. maybe i'm just scared of growing up, then i have no one to depend on, to guide me along all. haha, like. l o s e r. rahh.


VOTING STARTS TODAY.
how exciting it is. [:
have you voted? i haven't eh.
shall vote real soon.

Happy Birthday Ella! :D
hope you enjoyed the surprise!

Subway with random loves is awesome.
i satisfied my Subway Melts craving since 2 days ago. :D
wanted to bumpercar. but was tad expensive. ohwells. \:


anyhow, i want an imaginary friend.
it sounds very cute to have one. :D